Don’t you cry tonight; I still love you baby
So, I never thought I would do a page dedicated to a boyfriend. But, sometimes I feel guilty posting stuff about my happy relationship when I know so many of my followers are lonely. So here it is, my little sanctuary, where I can gush and talk about the person I love.
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Friday, June 17th 2011
Today Michael and I celebrate a month together. Saying that “celebrate a month together” sounds so pathetic, like a childish relationship, like someone’s first relationship, where every week is something bright and incredible. But I’m happy today, because Michael is special to me. Yeah, it may seem stupid after such little time, but he has made me smile again, and I honestly love him. Today he told me he loves me for the first time, which was so beautiful and so sweet I nearly cried. He is so sweet to me, and he respects me so much, it is wonderful. As well as being ridiculously happy,I feel especially grateful and lucky that I am finally in a happy relationship with someone who respects me and wants to make me happy, something I haven’t properly had before. It’s also nice that Michael isn’t just after sex, like my exes have been. I’ve been through so much shit and so much darkness, and at the moment, Michael feels like my beacon of light.
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Saturday, June 18th 2011
One thing I have noticed since Michael and I got together, I am posting more Slash. I even have Slash on my tracked tags. Slash is Michael’s idol, he admires Slash so much, almost as much as I admire Nikki Sixx. It’s cute! ^^
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Sunday, June 19th 2011
I have today ordered Michael’s birthday present. He knows what it is, just three patches. Nothing special, but we’ve only been together a month haha. It’ll make him happy, although I am considering getting him another present ;) Shush haha :P Today was nice, just hanging out together. I did make him watch Horrible Histories with Stephen Fry, not sure he was incredibly impressed haha. And I made him a cup of tea for the first time :O He has it the same way I do ;) Haha.
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Monday, June 20th 2011
Today I met Alex, Michael’s best friend, Alex’s girlfriend, and John, Michael’s neighbour. They decided they’d all go out to get drunk tonight, meaning I had my time with Michael cut short, but I don’t really mind because I know how much he’d been wanting to go out, see his mates, get pissed. I’m glad he got to do so. However, I kinda wish I’d had some notice that I’d be meeting his friends; I made a bit of a shit first impression tbh; I looked a right slob. I was really tired today so I was wearing school trousers, a Motley Crue top (which is good ofc), flat boots, no jewellery, no make-up. I’d only brushed my hair so by that point it was a bit messy and a bit greasy tbh. :( Not the best first impression; I want his friends to like me just as much as I want his family to like me. It’s important to me that they like me because I want to become a big part of Michael’s life and if they don’t like me it can put a downer on everything. Definitely on Michael’s birthday I’ll change their impression; I’ll definitely make more of an effort to look presentable (especially because people will be taking photographs).
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Tuesday, June 21st 2011
Michael called me at midnight last night, drunk haha. It was fun, it was loud, I could hear them all shouting and laughing. Apparently he was getting raped by his mate Chris, who I haven’t met yet. Fair enough? Lol. I am glad he had so much fun, and I’m glad he called because it was fun, and it’s nice to have an insight into what drunk Michael is like, but fuck I am tired now. After the phone call he was texting me for a bit, but I am now so fucking tired. Today I have an exam I am not prepared for, a lesson and my prom dress fitting, and all I can think about is crawling back into bed. Ah well, I suppose it was worth it. I love my boyfriend. Let’s see how big his hangover ishopefully really big so I can mock and tease him hahahahaha
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Wednesday, June 22nd 2011
I swear Michael is so beautiful, so romantic and sweet. We had a bit of a heart to heart, and he was telling me how he feels and I just cried. It is so wonderful to know that somebody actually cares about me, actually treats me right and respects me. I’ve been through so much and just, the words he said, brought tears to my eyes. He’s sensitive, he showed me his emotion too and it was one of the most perfect moments of my life so far. Later in the evening, Carl and Sarah (for those who don’t know, Sarah is Michael’s sister, a close friend of mine and the person who set us up, Carl is her fiancee and one of my best mates) joined us to watch School of Rock but it sort of turned into those two kissing, and us going “uuuurgh” and then Michael and me kissing and them throwing teddies at us. It was fun, we had a laugh. I am so happy right now. Life is beautiful.
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Sunday, June 26th 2011
I’ve stolen a picture of Michael off his Facebook. I don’t have his account added; he hasn’t logged on for like three years lol. I don’t like looking at it; there are hundreds of pictures of him with his ex and I just don’t like it lol. But, I cropped this, and seeing his face just makes me smile. :)
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Friday, 1st July 2011
So, it turns out Michael’s mum has known my dad for years! Haha it’s a small world, that as well as the fact I go to karate with Michael’s best mate’s mum lol. To be honest, it doesn’t really matter to me; Michael is all that matters. My mum said that my dad and his mum haven’t spoken for ten years, but I don’t care; I won’t let it get between Michael and me. Since when have I cared what my Dad thinks?? Haha. Today was so nice with Michael, we had double the fun ;) tehehe. It was incredible. I am very happy atm :D
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Monday, July 11th 2011
It was Michael’s 21st birthday yesterday. He had a BBQ and everyone got a bit drunk, it was a lot of fun. I accidently bumped into him in Subway (a very welcome surprise) today, and he continued to have fun after I left, even though he went to bed an hour later. It was an amazing night, I loved it as well. I met two of Michael’s friends that I hadn’t met (think I’ve met them all now) and one of those brought another guy. We were all drunk and played spin the bottle, which was … insane. The whole night was stupendously insane. Michael sat there at one point, people making out around him, others eating, everyone drinking and he just went “What the hell is going on” hahaha.
I love all the time I get to spend with him. I spent 11 hours with him yesterday, and I laughed so much. He got wound up over this stupid little game which was hilarious. Just thinking about him and last night leaves a huge stupid grin on my face.
Tomorrow he’s coming round. I am going to hold him in my arms and cuddle him, I can imagine him in my arms now and it’s wonderful. He’s at the pub at the moment, and I’m glad he’s happy. I wish my camera hadn’t broken yesterday; I want a picture of him, one I can maybe use as my Facebook profile picture, definitely one I can put on this page, of him and me. Maybe I’ll get one tomorrow.
I love being in love.
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Monday, July 18th 2011
I’ve been a bit depressed for a week, but Michael managed to cheer me up. He’s so funny, I can’t help but laugh. We play fight and tease each other all the time, it’s fun and we laugh so much. Sometimes I feel like we’re in a romance film - you know those scenes where they are play fighting and they look into each other’s eyes and then kiss? We do that a lot. I just imagine him with his arms around me right now. It feels amazing. I love when we watch a film and he’ll just have his arms around me and I’ll just be laying on his chest and we don’t need to talk. Fuck, this sounds like a huge bloody cliche. I guess love just is a bunch of cliches. Anyway, we have chosen our song - Don’t Cry by Guns n’ Roses. It just seems appropriate after I started crying and he was there holding me. I’m so glad we actually talked about my depression; I hadn’t spoken to him properly about it because I didn’t want it to spoil what we have. But he just told me that he’s there for me, and he understands that there will be times I might seem sad or upset or wanting to be alone. He told me that if I want, he’ll just hug me until I feel better, and if he’s not there I can text him anytime and he’ll be there. I don’t think anyone has cared about me that much, and although we’ve been together two months, I just feel so lucky and amazed that someone so understanding and caring would want to be with someone like me.
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Tuesday, July 19th 2011
To be honest, Michael and I didn’t do anything extraordinary today. It was just a normal day. And I love that. I love how we’re a happy couple, hanging out with his family and friends, having a laugh, enjoying being together, but not staying locked up, just us two. It’s nice that his family and friends like me and accept me into their group. I feel extremely lucky today :) And this lucky girl gets to see her love again tomorrow xD
Anyway, here’s a collage of some of the pictures from when we went to Alex’s house
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Wednesday, July 20th 2011
The past few days have been amazing. Michael makes me feel like I’m alive again. Seeing him every day for three days has been such a treat, and he always makes me feel special. Tomorrow we are having some time to ourselves, and that’s good; it’s good to spend time apart and do the things we love. It’s the beauty of us being a couple, when we are together we are happy, whether is it us alone or with others, and when we are apart we are still in each other’s minds and hearts, but not to the extent where we obssess over each other, and miss each other fanatically. We miss each other, but we are still happy. And then we are together again, content. It is so beautiful.
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Thursday, July 21st 2011
Today was our day apart, but that doesn’t mean we neglect each other. I was bored and trapsing through eBay, and I found a rare Slash CD. So I’ve ordered it for him, what a nice girlfriend I am haha. To be fair, he is giving me the money back, but it means I only have £10 left in my bank account. And I’ve found a fuck load of Mötley Crüe merch I want. But oh well, I can’t wait for it to arrive, Michael will be so happy. And I will have plenty of opportunities to buy Mötley Crüe merch. I love Michael’s obsession with Slash; it means he understands my obsession with Nikki Sixx. And it will make buying him birthday/Christmas presents really easy haha ;)
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Tuesday, August 2nd 2011
I feel so happy with Michael, so this 12 year old is creeping me out even more than he usually did. In the past hour (between 1pm and 2pm) I’ve had countless Facebook messages, a text and six missed calls from him. He’s creeping me out big style. And he called me “babe”, what the hell? Michael doesn’t even call me babe and he loves me.
I felt so bad last night; Michael sent me a sweet text last night at half 10, but I didn’t see it until half 12. I know he probably sent that just before he went to sleep so I didn’t reply; I didn’t want to wake him. I did feel bad though; I didn’t want him to go to bed thinking I was ignoring him or whatever. As soon as I woke up I text him, told him what happened and that I love him too. He replied with ‘Aaaw you’re amazing’ :’) He’s amazing, it’s amazing that I make him happy. I was texting his sister and she said he’s been all “happy and strange” since he started going out with me :’) I’m glad I have that affect. He makes me very happy too.
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Sunday, August 5th 2011
Oh I was so mushy today. I missed Michael when I was at Jo’s. I know I was only in Dewsbury for a day, but I did miss him a lot. When I’m at Jo’s I always do a lot of thinking, so when I saw Michael today, I spoke a lot of mush. I just feel so lucky, so happy. And I just told him. His brother was home, so we were just hugging and talking. And I told him how much I value him, how I never want to take him for granted or hurt him or lose him. I want him to make him happy, and do anything I can to see that beautiful smile. Gah, here I go again :’) I cried earlier, just talking with such passion about Michael, someone I love so much, it was too much. Michael, I love you. I really do. You’re incredible. I can’t thank you enough. But I won’t stop trying.
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Monday, August 7th 2011
I am so in love with Michael. It is 2:23am, I can’t sleep. I’m thinking about Michael. I don’t want anyone else. I’m not kidding, I would turn down Nikki Sixx for Michael. I didn’t expect to fall this much in love. I don’t deserve him. I really want to believe he’s the one, but after a short time, I can’t know that :/ In my heart though, I want to believe he’s the one because then this happiness will never have to end. After the past disasters, I’m scared of him leaving me. I’m scared I will have been foolish once again. But I am so happy and so in love, and I know he loves me.
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Sunday, August 23rd 2011
Seeing Michael for the first time since Wednesday has just been amazing. I am so happy. I love how we play and laugh - I laugh so much when I’m with Michael. I feel safe and secure and I smile so much. He shows his love all the time - kissing me, holding me, teasing me playfully. I can’t remember the last time I felt as trouble-free as I did today with Michael. We go on YouTube and watch videos that make us laugh, or watch music videos that we love (Michael is recently into Lordi; he loves their videos). We watch films and he will just hold me while we watch. One time I caught him looking at me instead of watching the film, which was cute. I am so lucky. I know, not only from experience, that not all guys can be loving and doting the way Michael is with me.
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Thursday, August 25th 2011
I miss Michael. I know we’ve only been apart for one day, but I do miss him. I had a bad night last night, and today has been a long day, and being in his arms feels like such a luxury. I know I posted about it and an anonymous person told me not to complain, but I’m not complaining. I’m not complaining that I didn’t get to see him today, I know it’s good for us to have days to ourselves so we can do things we want or need to do. But I enjoy being with him and I can’t wait to see him tomorrow. I am very grateful for what I have, his love, and I don’t ever want to take that for granted.
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Friday, August 26th 2011
I got my GCSE results yesterday. And when I got to Michael’s today he gave me the cutest card and a big box of chocolates. It was a complete surprise, I felt so bloody lucky today. I never expected that, I love how much he cares. He gave me them and I just looked at him and went “what’s that for?” haha, what an idiot!! Michael and I enjoyed eating those chocolates together ;)
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Sunday, August 28th 2011
Today has been amazing. We went to Bolton Castle with his parents. Bolton Castle is a beautiful place, stunning views, falconry, authentic features, incredible gardens. Going there with Michael made the experience even more special. He was so cute, holding my hand, hugging me, slyly kissing me when his parents weren’t looking (we didn’t want to make the atmosphere uncomfortable lol). We got some cute pictures of us together, which was nice because we didn’t have any photos of us together. We laughed and I felt so, so happy. Just being by his side. Being accepted into his family - his mum bought me a replica of Mary Queen of Scot’s necklace. That was another special thing about today; I love the Tudors. So seeing authentic Tudor furniture, to stand in the room where Mary Queen of Scots stayed, that meant a lot to me. And Michael knew that. He owns an actual Elizabethan silver coin, he showed me it. He also persuaded me to go up to the battlements, even though I am scared of heights. The view was breathtaking, but I was shitting myself so I went back down haha. I had so much fun, I’m glad I went, even though I don’t like social situations. Another good thing is that because I’ve spent more time with Michael’s parents I feel a bit more comfortable around them. Which will make life easier lol. Another thing we did today was take a trip to the Black Sheep brewery, which was cool ^^ Having a day trip with Michael has meant a lot to me; the last time I had that was two years ago. It shows that he really does want me as part of his life, and that seems incredible to me. Someone as special as Michael would want me. I really felt like his girlfriend today. That sounds wrong, I always feel like his girlfriend, I feel loved, but I mean, I felt like he was proud to be my boyfriend and the idea that people could see us and tell we were a happy couple … I am just so happy.
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Tuesday, August 30th 2011
Being alone with Michael was amazing, the house to ourself all day. We sat and watched Motley Crue, Saints of Buenos Aires, and we watched TV, played music, played with the pug, and it seemed perfect.
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Friday, September 9th 2011
Today I went to round Michael’s after school. Usually, he meets me half way and then walks with me to his house, but not today. He asked if I would walk all the way up; he was doing something. A surprise he said. When I got to his, he covered my eyes before we went into his room. As soon as he opened the doors I could smell them - candles. When he uncovered my eyes, I saw the room was full of candles. It was beautiful, such a romantic gesture. I’ve never had anything like that before. I felt really special, and I know just how special he is to me.
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Wednesday, September 14th 2011
Last night, Michael went to the pub with his mates. I love it when he does; I love knowing I’m not holding him back and he’s still getting to do the things he has always loved doing. At 10pm, just before I went to bed, I sent him a message saying goodnight, I hoped he was having fun and that I love him. This morning I woke up to his reply:
“Hey I just want to say I love u so much, I always think about u and I just can’t imagine life without u *hug* goodnight xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx”
This is the best message I have ever received :’) It is so beautiful and an amazing thing to wake up to on a morning. I love you too Michael. More than I can describe.
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Thursday, September 15th 2011
Michael is hot in a shirt
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Friday, September 16th 2011
Tonight was my Dad’s party. Michael looked gorgeous, even more so than usual. I felt very lucky to be by his side tonight. And my niece seems to like him, she said he was ‘awesome’ and kept sitting on his knee instead of mine. Totally sold out! I love how well Michael fits in with my family and their friends. He’s only met one of my friends, my best friend Freya, once. My school friends wouldn’t exactly appreciate it; don’t ask me why they just don’t like the fact I have a boyfriend. It’s a sort of unwritten rule - if we meet out of school you never bring your boyfriend or girlfriend. I reckon they’d like Michael tbh, but oh well. I’m glad I get to stand beside him.
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Saturday, October 8th 2011
It has occurred to me that I haven’t written in a while. I think it is probably because I feel guilty for only getting to see Michael three times a week. I’m thrilled that karate is now changing to Tuesdays so I should be able to see Michael on Wednesdays as well. I wish I could spend every day with him because the days when I am with him are the days I am happiest. He is wonderful, loving and considerate. He understands how important my studies are and I am so glad he understands and respects that. He was really stressed last week and I hated feeling like there was nothing I could do. I couldn’t even hold him because I had too much work to do :(
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Wednesday, October 12th 2011
I’m seeing Michael tomorrow xD Yeeeeey <3
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Friday, October 21st 2011
I cried a few times today at Michael’s. I don’t know why, my mood suddenly changed and I couldn’t stop crying. I felt horrific; I don’t want him to see what he’s with, such a depressed girl. But I have faith and love. I have faith that Michael is different to everyone else and actually cares about me. I love him and he loves me. He told he doesn’t mind, that I have nothing to be sorry for. He is so wonderful, caring and kind to me, I am incredibly lucky. I love you Michael. I am so grateful for every day I get to spend with you.
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Sunday, October 30th 2011
The Halloween party last night was brilliant, although I think Michael might have been a bit embarrassed by me. My thong was on show, I was yelling at people, I fell into a fireplace. He was laughing so much. I’m glad he doesn’t think any less of me. It was the first proper party I’ve been to, with people getting very drunk to loud music. It was an amazing experience, I’m glad I was the one who got to sit on Michael’s knee and make out with him :’) Sleeping in his bed as well, oh it was amazing. Laying next to him, his beautiful bare chest, his arms around me. My body fell asleep but my mind didn’t, party because I was too drunk (when I get drunk my mind works overtime lol) and partly because I didn’t want to do something stupid like talk in my sleep and embarrass myself further. Especially because his brother sleeps in that room and his mate was staying over too. I did enjoy sleeping in his bed, I hope I get to do it again soon.
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Saturday, November 5th 2011
Last night, Michael and I went to the bonfire in Rothwell. It was the first time we’ve gone out with my friends and I enjoyed it. I thought I was giving everyone enough attention, that everyone was happy. Then my sister started stirring shit up, Michael and I both ended up a bit upset. But we’re stronger than what my sister is used to with my relationships - he shit stirring didn’t even cause an argument. We haven’t argued. We’ve had no need. Hannah made me feel awful, I thought that I hadn’t given Michael enough attention and that I was just abandoning him for my friends, but he assures me that wasn’t the case, and considering he’s reblogged the images from last night, I’m guessing he did enjoy himself. And I got to sleep in his bed again! Only, I feel asleep not long after we got to his because I was so exhausted, and this time I fully fell asleep so I didn’t talk and make “despairing” noises and at one point he had to move me because I was hogging the bed. Then, this morning, he bought me a bacon sandwich because I was craving one :) He’s so lovely. That was the best bacon sandwich ever.
Samii was very upset today. They guy who has spent months telling her he loves her has got a girlfriend. She’s more angry than anything, but it’s still hard for her. It’s times like this, when I see my friends hurting, that I realise just how lucky I am. I appreciate Michael and I love being with him. I am very, very lucky to be in this stable, happy relationship, something I, and many of my friends, have not had for a long time. I love Michael being on tumblr. It’s like when Nikki Sixx got tumblr - I’m really excited, I reblog 99% of what he posts. Best thing is, Michael reblogs me, and I get a huge smile when I see he has - sunsetguns reblogged you. Oh Michael :) I love you
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Monday, November 7th 2011
“Maybe it’s the booze talking but your the best thing that has ever happened to me, I love you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx”
Holy fuck I must be the luckiest girl alive. This is just what I needed after today
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Tuesday, November 8th 2011
Last night at 11pm:
“I know it’s late but I just want to say your amazing, I don’t think I can really put into words how I feel about you, all I can say is I hope I get to spend the rest of my life with you, I love you so much *hug* xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx”
Aaaaaw bless him when he’s drunk! He is so lovely and so sweet, I am so lucky :’) 34 kisses on the end!!
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Monday, November 21st 2011
I just got a message:
“Hey just thought I would txt to say I love you *hug* you’re amazing xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx”
Messages like that from Michael always make me smile so wide. He is so special to me. Today we were playing and teasing, and it’s times like that when I don’t think I could ever be happier. It’s the small things Michael does, the way he smiles, the way he takes the piss out of me teasingly, all the little things that make me love him even more
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Saturday 3rd December 2011
OMG sleeping next to Michael - I love it! I just kept stroking and caressing him last night, lying next to him, and he feel asleep pretty quick, so he looked so peaceful and beautiful. He means so much to me.
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Monday, December 12th 2011
Last night, I saw Motley Crue for the first time. It was such an incredible night, insane, the pyrotechnics were incredible, and Nikki was right in front of me, but that’s not what I want to write about. I want to talk about Michael.
I am so thrilled that I got to share this experience with someone like Michael. He didn’t get a lot of attention throughout the day as I met some of my internet friends and then we got separated for a while inside the venue, but he never complained. He enjoyed himself almost as much as I did. Michael is so liberal and lets me be me. Sometimes, I make jokes about how Nikki Sixx is my true love or whatever, and he knows that I’m joking and laughs with me. Sometimes I think ‘fuck what if I upset him’, because my I know all three of my ex boyfriends would get pissed off at me for the tiniest things, but Michael knows me, my character and loves that. I just feel so grateful.
During Def Leppard’s set he went to the back of the crowd, and I didn’t see him go. I felt awful; after Motley’s set I just wanted to hold him and tell him how much I loved him and how incredibly happy I was, but he was gone. I still enjoyed Def Leppard, but when they’d finished I was eager just to get out and go. As soon as I spotted him I ran to him and held him to me and everything felt perfect. I am a very lucky girl. I hope he knows I think that. There’s nobody I would rather be with and nobody I would rather share this whole experience with.
Thank you Michael. I love you.
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Wednesday, December 14th 2011
Today was so lovely, Michael was being so affectionate. He kept kissing my lips, my face, my neck, my chest, and holding me to him, and saying such sweet things. I felt very happy. As usual. He really made me feel so special last night, I want this feeling forever.
On Monday he bought a scrap book for us, showing the sorta thing we love to do together. We’ve been planning what to put in it, neither of us can wait. I’ve never had something like this, and if I did it was not something my boyfriend would have started. But this was all Michael’s idea. He really loves me. It’s amazing.
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Friday, December 30th 2011
My favourite chick flick has just come on the TV - The Holiday, it’s on every year and I didn’t realise it was on today until my Dad changed the channel and it came on. It’s such a romantic film, I adore it. All I wanted was to be snuggled up with Michael, with a Jack Daniels hot chocolate and watch it together. Maybe next year.
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Sunday, January 22nd 2012
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about when I go to Cambridge. I know Michael won’t come with me; it won’t be financially viable. I’ve been worried and depressed by this over the past few days because I know long distance relationships don’t work out; I’m terrified of it being too much for us. Today, we were talking about University. I was complaining about how my Dad’s not keeping a room for me when I go so I have to take all my belongings with me. Michael said I could leave some of my things at his house, and I brought up the point that we might not survive those three years. I cried a bit actually, while we were talking. I don’t want our relationship to end and neither does he. We’re going to work at it - webcam every night, spend our time together during my breaks (at university you spend half your time on holiday) and he’d make plans to visit me at weekends. He should be working by then, so we’re going to save up as much as possible so that when I leave university, by which point we’ll have been together five years, we can move in together. We know those three years will be hard, but we’re going to make it work.
That’s what is so incredible about our relationship. For the first time, I can see this option working. Before, my boyfriends have expected me to stay in Leeds to be with them, forsaking my dreams. Michael doesn’t want that for me. He wants me to be happy. He wants me to fulfil my dreams. And he wants us to stay together. And we will. I know we can make it work.
I feel so much better now that I’ve actually spoken to him about my fears.
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Friday, January 27th 2012
Today is my seventeenth birthday. Michael has bought me a Mötley Crüe blue LED sign which is amazing. I can’t wait to put it up on my wall. His family bought me chocolates and his sister gave me some money. I love feeling like I’m sort of a part of their family. It’s just a nice feeling knowing they like me because Michael is so important to me.
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Tuesday, February 14th 2012
Today is Valentine’s Day, obviously. Michael was so cute. He told me he hadn’t bought me anything when he’d got me some socks that have owls on them and say ‘Who loves you’, some rose petals soap, chocolate and a rose. A real rose! I’ve never had one before. He wrote such a lovely message in my card as well:
Vikki, you are the best and brightest thing in my life and I never want that to change. I love you so much.
We went down to the Subway where we met and he got us both a coffee (although I don’t like coffee lol). He forgot, but it was still a lovely gesture and I know he thought it would be romantic. I love him so much. I am so happy.
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Thursday, May 17th 2012
Today is our year anniversary. We’re both skint so we’re not buying each other gifts and we’re not doing anything to celebrate. In a way, I would have liked to do something to celebrate, but I don’t need that. Our relationship isn’t about materialistic crap like so many other teenage relationships I see. It sucked we didn’t get any privacy today because his brother wasn’t at work, but I’m glad I just got to spend time with him.
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Sunday, May 27th 2012
My sister celebrated her sixteenth birthday belatedly today with a garden party. Michael came over and got slightly drunk. He’s so cute when he’s drunk, and so funny. He comes out of his shell, talking more and laughing. He was slurring his words and quite often didn’t make sense, which was hilarious. I love him to pieces. Freya, my best friend, has never seen this side to Michael and she couldn’t believe it. He’s also a lot more affectionate publicly when he’s drunk; he seems to forget he doesn’t like public displays of affection.
After the garden party, Michael and I went back to his house and he was paralytic. He collapsed on his bed and I had to take his shoes and jewelry off for him. Bryan was laughing at him. Even though he was half asleep he kept pulling me to be closer to him, especially when I said he was going home. I asked him why he wanted me to stay when he clearly just wanted to sleep and he just replied with “Because I love you”. I melted a bit at that pointed. Tomorrow we’re going to a BBQ. I hope his hangover isn’t too great.
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